We want to believe in the good within the evil, so desperately, that we don’t ever call it evil,
Seeing things the way we want them to be rather than what they really are, can be comforting.. but not for long…
There is a certain level of bliss in being delusional..
We all love the idea of being in love rather than love itself..
Because love is difficult, love is brutal; it takes more than it gives, breaks more than it mends, the silence of your pain will be louder than your screams, and the scars left behind in this battle never fade!
Life is shitty that way! Isn’t it? It throws you on the track to jump hurdles when you are still limping or can barely walk from your previous Injury. The lessons you learn hardly prepare you for the future, instead they are constant reminders of the pain and suffering you once endured!
Once you’re hurt, the answers don’t matter, because you’ll stop asking the questions! You’ll see things differently because your belief is now shaken and you don’t have the strength to peel through layers to find the truth! You blatantly accept what’s been offered to you!
You don’t feel anything anymore because you have felt it all, over and over again! You have played every theory, every if and but, in your mind, but none make sense to you, so you give up and you give in!
You would envy the people who have someone worth saving and loathe the ones who don’t realize that!
Doesn’t it feel like a lifetime when you know you have met the one who was supposed to stay in, and together you should have made sense of this universe!
You should have… but then… you lived your lifetime in that short span of time!
The truth is, that little scene in our head of “how it was supposed to be” screws it all up!
So if doesn’t make sense to you now, don’t try too hard.
You can never unravel the treasure without the map; you cannot unlock that chest of mysteries without the key!
The universe doesn’t have to make sense to you right now! It did once, didn’t it?
It will make sense again…. I promise! 🙂